Believe to Achieve

against all that is right in the world i should not have shown up.  but i was still in shock that all my training this summer went to waste with this sudden injury incompatible with jogging nevermind running.  got up at 420 am.  got to bus at 515am.  got to top at 605 am.  cold and super crowded.  ran up a mile very slow and painfully and knew full well this was not a good idea. knee seems out of place causing my thigh to track wrong too.  and pain in thigh and groin kind of too much.  super stressful race start in a lot of pain with a wrap around my thigh holding whatever tendon has snapped into place.  all i could think of is get to next mile, now get to next.  pace was not forced. it was super easy cardio wise.  i am still in shock at the pain.  after the race i went to byu fb game with it wrapped and after that it was in severe pain that i had to take a muscle relaxant. quad burning.  groin burning.  unable to lift leg with out pain or walk or stand or lay down.  I had already iced in af river for 18 minutes after driving right there at noon after race.  I got to mile 11 and tried to adjust my wrap as it was  falling off so I just took it off and it was the worst thing I could do.  stopped me in  my tracks and I had to walk the rest.  could not even break into a jog.  so I stopped a few minutes into mile 12 so that mile was 21:xx and the next even slower 27:55!!!  like sooooo bad pain.   everyone was cheering for me telling me I got this etc.. It  really was nice of everyone.  so many people just running by.  they looked good.  couldnt make sense of my non moving body. turtle speed.  I was brave I know that. the pain and running was soooo stupid yet brave.  the last 0.1 took about 3.5 minutes.  maybe more.  

Paces:  7:34/7:33/7:03/6:48/6:37/6:55/6:40/6:56/6:56/7:34/8:01 (PURPOSELY SLOWED TO TRY AND GET QUAD TO QUIET), 21:16/27:55 AND 4 MIN FOR LAST 0,2.  7:09 AVG FOR FIRST 11 MILES.  i definitely could have run 1:30.  I wasn;t even having an adrenaline run rush. just all pain.  able to talk easily with others albeit not very positive.  last night was soooo painful.  right quad a heck ton sorer than affected leg.  it had to work over time!!  inner thigh groin difficulty lifting leg from straight leg and side to side and going up stairs left foot first.