Believe to Achieve

 I wasn't going to write this as a race entry but figured I'd better buck up and face reality.  A reality that I need to work on a few things.  First of all, I don't deserve to start at the front of the pack and this only causes me to have an anxiety attack as I can't possible stay up with them but for a few feet.  I learned this last year at Art City, but they don't have chip times there so it is better to start up front.  But this run was chipped so I should have started in the back and picked off runners instead of taking off at a one time speed of 6:06 that lasted a few feet when I looked at my watch in shock and slowed the heck down.  HELLOOOOO!!! I am not that fast and will die soon.  Well the uphill mile was difficult and was as fast as my 5th mile so that tells me I burned it too much on the first hill.  I am now going to get back out to the hills for some speed there.  Second by the time the downhill came my adrenaline was washed a way that I panicked how I would feel at the flat to uphill ending.  I didn't push it there because I was too scared.  Anxiety building and darn it my quads are aching.  They had been hurting since switching back to my really old shoes.  At least my achilles problem has been fixed and I would take the sore quads over that pain anyday.  Passed some BYU boys and told them "don't worry I am a girl" and "don't worry I am also over forty".  This usually gets the guys moving.  They were a little shocked and by the end I could see even in all the chaos of 5k and 9 k runners the same boy passing me the last .1 miles with a pretty good sprint.  I had nothing left at the end.  The track was filled with slow runners and I was already too disappointed with myself and the course foul-up that I didn't care to sprint much at all.  Hence the poor  .6 mile end pace of 7:01.  Silly me.  I just wanted an avg pace of 6:46 and the stars were not quite aligned for me. Will try harder next time and fuel better and not be sick.  Met some fun people at the race.  Got cold quickly, rain turned to sleet turned to snow.  Spring has yet to Spring.

Splits to follow...So the GI problems got worse and thought I could shake it off by running fast...but my fast wasn't really fast.  I warmed up for 3.2 miles easy then ran a 5.6 mile time trial.  But after the first .2 miles my body felt achy, no adrenaline and basically wiped out.  The 5 of 7 night shift routine isn't helping but at least I am a bit faster than last year on the same schedule.  I was cancelled more last year and this year I haven't been cancelled.  Disney on Ice was fun then we went to the eatery at the Gateway.  Has anyone noticed the PERFUME they inject into air at the outdoor mall there?   I have noticed it each time.  So much for going GREEN at the Gateway.  Such was the start of my time trial.  A lot of guys and gals with perfume.  Mainly the men at the front of the pack and I noticed what house uses what detergent the whole way.  When I lack sleep my extra-sensory perception is even more heightened.  It took my breath away and my heartrate reacted and sped way up and my breathing was way off, never to come back to a groove.  Body felt light but unattached.  Tried to move my arms quickly and they were like marshmallows.  The Riverton 1/2 should be interesting.  I will try for a 7 minute mile pace considering the rolling hills and possible headwinds.  I won't even be sore from this time trial.  I never entered the lactate zone.  Has anyone ever tried to run fast with the stomach flu and major lack of sleep?  It is not easy.  Here are my splits:  7:10(big uphill), 6:49, 6:29 (big downhill), 7:01, 7:09, .6 @ 7:01.  Total mileage 9.  Was going to run a cooldown but it was much colder and I felt very weak, dehydrated.  No gu, one sip of water for the run.  Oatmeal for breakfast.