Believe to Achieve

I slept okay from 11pm until 4am.  Then couldn't fall asleep, my stomach was bothering me. Ridiculous.  Then I stared at  the ceiling for a good amount of time.  Drifted on and off but not restful.  Try as I may I wasn't thinking of the marathon consciously.  So of course my subconcious was and really got my brain all in a tizzy.  Relax think of something totally boring or way off the subject.   Finally at 8am I got up in bed and began reading the book I started yesterday.  A little heavy reading and a rather different view of the trilogy.  Got to keep reading to find out about the meaning of all things--in the book.  Later... though got the kids up and to school then ran or should I say "trotted" 1.22 mile route around my neighborhood.  Pace about 10:46.  Slow motion to me but honestly I felt too flul-like to care.  I was trying to get the cobwebs out, new and old.  I feel very nauseated and achy.  My daughter came home at 1030 am from school yesterday with a stomach ache--- I washed my hands diligently...she also has very swollen glands.  But really this kind of thing happens before any big race (unless I am too tired from working nights to notice).  It is like my body knows what it is up against and is trying its last futile attempt to bail out.  My mind won't allow it.  Wish the body would just give in already.  Doubt I will sleep more than two hours tonite.  It is part of who I am.  I don't unwind easily.  You should see me at the Wasatch Back Relay.  I am going and going and my van is falling asleep on me.  I was the last leg for two years.  I had to look alive.  I had to wait the longest.  NO ONE looked alive when I ran.   It was rather humorous actually.  I think I should like to take on Ragnar.  No more unbelievably steep downhill terrain  (on no sleep and 100 degrees) !!!!    Sorry got off subject.  I am not running Wasatch this year but really had a blast the two years I did.  In less than 24 hours I should be closing in at the finish line in a matter of minutes.  I am getting nauseated again.