Believe to Achieve

1100 North to MY ROCKY MOMENT!!  Man, my back is STILL AILING GREATLY!!  Hamstring nerve pain.  Just all locked up.  What is all this?  Stress is all I can attribute it to and perhaps I truly do have a tethered cord.  I want to still ignore that thought right now.  I am just resting on miles right now and going to build up slowly and work on here and there some quality runs.  Running the Riverton 10K this Saturday and feel I might be able to muster a 7:00 to 7:10 pace there hopefully with this back pain that "is in my head" according to this book.  I think I am all out of adrenaline so its "in my body" for sure.  I work tonight, wed. and thurs. as usual so I will be wiped out adrenaline-wise for that race.  I think Ragnar on absolutely NO sleep for days really did me in, ya think?  Seriously, I try to be super Woman but it is just not happening, I am still mortal.  Dang it :  ((((!!!!!    Now I pay the price.  Pace up: 9:47, Pace down 6:50.  5 miles total.  Not pushing it at all.   It's too much right now.   AND NOW FOR THE BEST NEWS OF ALL!!!!!! :   I got the DAY SHIFT position and begin on AUGUST 10th!!!!! YIPPPEEEEEEE NORMALCY COMING UP!!  I will work only 60 hours per pay period too : D.  I will work every other Fri, Sat. and Sunday (6am to 630pm) but that's nothing compared to all those night shifts.  I am coming back from the dead!!! I will sure miss my night shift crew, they are awesome!!!  I have so much respect for night shift.  I just can't sleep normally so I have to for my sanity!!! ALLELUYAH!!! That gives me 8 weeks of normal sleep before St. George!!!  

MUGGY!!!  too busy in am waking at 9am to piano drill sargeant then to dentist coordinator.  Left at 114pm in the stale air.  So not easy.  So fatigued.  Muscles ALL tight especially low back and hamstrings.  Just not a runner at the moment.  I can see how difficult it must be for a NON-runner to start a running regimen.  Oh My!! I felt so heavy.  I just could barely move my hips and legs.  Glutes so not engaged as the PT said.  Ran 5 struggling miles.  Not many sprinklers running at this hour so I was so very parched as well.  Can I sound anymore pathetic?  I would like to know who has taken my portion of optimism?  I am getting a heavy duty dose of negativity here.  Progressive pace 8:58,  8:09, 8:00, 7:27,  7:15.  AP 7:58.    BTW this type of fatigue hits every late Spring/Summer.  When the cool weather comes in my body changes.  Must be the negative ions sticking close to the surface, hence the negative energy.  Who has the positive ions?  Speak up.  : D

5  is the loveliest number that I will ever run....in this HEAT!!! HOLY MOLY who started the fire?  I mean searing heat that even the wind is not that inviting!!!  And it is quite the wind.  Last night it blew our very nice grill off our deck and down the stairs on to the concrete.  Bummer.  A wheel is busted and some fender benders.  Dang.    I saw it whirling in the wind while sitting at my kitchen table and screamed out to Troy and couldn't get there in time before it crashed.  BTW NO sprinkler to welcome me to optimism on this run until the last 1/2 mile!!!  Wowsers!! Parched with cotton mouth it was just a mind over heat run.  Back pain there, going nowhere.  I just push through it as usual with anything.  Same loop as yesterday only in reverse.  AP 8:03.  Kept this more of an even pace not so much progressive.  Hosed myself off at the end.  Even my hose water was warm!!   

Met Kim.  Drove separately to Riverton for their city 10k.  Great course.  Follows the ending of the half marathon course but in a back and out fashion.  Warmup for 1.8 miles. Mighty windy.  First half more downhill.  Pretty hilly all around.   Knew Kim would win.  She did.  I came in third overall ($10 gift card to SLC Running store).   I actually had some speed saved up from holding back and ran the last .24 miles @ a 6:13 pace.  Throughout the whole race I thought I might start walking or DNF but mustered the will to run through the pain.  This pain is not normal.  Whatever it is.  It is continous pulsating throbbing pain in both buttocks and the lower back.  Inner thighs numbish as well as lower back and front of abdomen. Pelvis very unstable.  Pain scale 8 during run.  Geez!!  Slept a broken six hours and that just does not make up for the lack of Zzzzs.  Plan to sleep and sleep the next two nights.  Only 5 weeks left until dayshift : D.    AP for 6.2 = 7:12.  Do not feel the least bit worked in any other area of my body except my  foggy brain.  If only I could get rid of this pain....time to go to another Dr. visit.  My bishop is a Family Practice Doctor.  He was just called as bishop last month and he said he would see me and LOOK AT THE WHOLE PICTURE!!   (my husband is his exec. sec so he asked him)  It is so difficult to go to a dr. and come out with prescriptions but no answers hence why the huge delay here.