Believe to Achieve

so happy to have cut this race short...four miles then walked a bit then ran to about 5.2 or so and found the sheriff, no tears) first dnf and i was very calm. relieved. this has got to be my smartest running moment ever.  walking hurt, but i am masochistic and hoped for a miracle...two visits to chiropracter, one massage, two steroid injections to heel, laser to back....no relief...even with a pain md out of dezperation.  standing around the fires by myself (lost kim and stacy who i staued with at the marriott) i was wondering how i was going to persvere the pain in my foot?  boston was hard but this pain was even more severe.....i started the race with a goal to just finish at 330 then just finish....but at 0.1 miles it was clear i was not going to be canceling out "hot coals barefoot" feeling in my right heel and ankle.  i tried all my tricks to negate it....even singing out loud with my ipod music.  my first mile was a shocker--7:04.   i thought i was at a 830 pacw. i didnt have a garmin.  mine broke when i did two weeks ago.  and i didnt want a time pressure anyway.  i thought to myself...if this pain were gone this race, rain and colder temps, would have been sweet!   i just knew i was ready cardio and mentally . i just didnt get a miracle. but i m so okay with that. a nice police officer gave me a warm drive to the halfway where i cheered many runners on while i froze, being soked. but i enjoyed it. thanking volunteers along the way. seriously they rock to be out there longer than an individual runner!   i got offered a ride by a very kind man as his wife was running her first race. she came in at 2 hours at the half and we were ofc the long way to north ogden. it was so toasty warm in the truck. i was so thankful he heard my request to find a way down as the relay shuttles were far from leaving the half way point. some great conversation there. he dropped me off at my hotel which is 0.1,miles from the finish. i quickly changex and made it to the finishe line at 2:59!  saw third place gil cross and many friends after that. everyone persevered well. i was limping at the finish line and was having lots of shooting pains through my ankle. idk if it is my back...herniated disc or plantar fascitis or both.  so painful. yay, i m out of competition for the slam. a relief. i only signed up for it to get into sgm. i got in on my own anyway.   ha ha.  now i can rest. if foot heals i will run uvm but i m not going to stress about it.  st george is my focus.