Believe to Achieve

3.4 mile warm up to AF HS track (long way).  Felt good but thirsty. Doors locked on side and too "lazy" to run around front to try those that were probably open.   Also felt like I had to pee so I just shook it off to nerves and got on track and stretched a little but first went to ask cheerleading squad to move their big speaker off the first lane of the track.  I just didn't want to have to dodge that every lap.  Goal to be last weeks time of 21:19.    I DID!! but I totally flaked the last mile.  Mainly due to track anxiety-- SUN was rising fast and it got hot.  I started my time trial at 8:15am.  NOT a cloud in the sky.  I spend 40 minutes at home looking for my uncharged phone to no avail that made me more anxious for this run when at first when  I awoke I felt confident and ready.   Secondly, who the heck brings their dog to the track to walk?????  yup at lap 7-8 these girls came walking onto the track with their happy go lucky dog.  Not dangerous looking but energetic and distracting nonetheless mainly because twice they started walking in lane 1 when clearly I was running some fast laps.  I actually had to tell them I was coming.--two people wide and a dog running around them tied to the leash.  Basically I broke concentration and with the sun I just was becoming more of a performance failure due to anxiety.  My first mile was awesome but probably too quick at this stage of my 3 mile time trials (my second one in 8 days).  Here are my splits (used my 30 lap split watch instead of my 10 which let me see each lap as I pressed it  at each pass, slipped at one point so only have the 800.  I looked at a few but half  I did not.  I am wishing I could have overcome the dog challenge.  LOL.  1:41.18, 1:42.82, 1:44.04, 1:46.15 = 6:54.19 first mile YIKES!!  1:43.14, 1:46.15, 1:47.02, 1:49.29 = 7:05:60    3:37.88 (1:49.00, 148.88?? even split is a guess-- missed the button), 1:49.30,  1:44.79 = 7:11.97  TOTAL TIME 21:11.76!!  8 seconds faster than 8 days ago.  Kind of bummed because I was at  2 miles at 13:59.79.    7:07 for last mile was possible.  Hope I can overcome mental obstacles next time.   ALSO I was at 1.5 miles in 10:23.48.  Thats pretty good!! sub 7 pace!!  I think once this weight comes off it will get naturally easier to do with less effort.